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made the gaang with this picrew cause i have too much time on my hands, enjoy
#almost didn't make suki#so disappointed in myself fr#it's like if they were normal teenagers but i gave zuko and aang their scar and tattoo because they looked wrong without them#dimpled aang and suki supremacy#i gave zuko a hearing aid in his scarred ear because he canonically can't hear well out of it#(i'm aware that hearing aid probably can't help with damaged eardrums maybe they can i don't actually know so sorry)#gave sokka glasses cause i'm projecting and i feel like he's strained his eyes so much over the years#freckled aang sokka (on his neck down so you can't really see it) and suki supremacy#gave sokka a bunch of face moles cause i can#gave toph acne cause she's the youngest in my heart (yes i know her and aang are the same age)#i gave the gaang as whole many piercings and i'm not ashamed (aang's the only one without one idk why don't ask)#atla#avatar the last airbender#the gaang#aang#katara#sokka#zuko#toph#suki#also this is how i had to learn that suki is the only one out of the gaang that has like actual lips at all times#(as in her character design)#OH i also gave aang and toph scars (aang = arms toph = face) because it spoke to me and felt right idk#also if you squint you can see blemishes on zuko's neck cause again it just felt right#i'm actually so proud of these AHHHH#team avatar#didn't even mean to make a pattern with the backgrounds just worked out that way heheh#EDIT: remade the boys cause i used the wrong sized clothes and it was bothering me SO MUCH (zuko's hair is longer now let's all cheer)
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Misfits water gun fight! Who will emerge victorious? Only one way to find out
I did this piece for one of the @mairumadevizine prints! It was also done long before the beach chapters in the manga and I really just... balled with their designs
#mairimashita! iruma kun#mairuma#m!ik#mairuma devizine#illustration#fanart#purson soi#asmodeus alice#suzuki iruma#valac clara#gaap goemon#agares picero#allocer schneider#sabnock sabro#shax lied#caim kamui#ix elizabetta#crocell kerori#andro m jazz#id in alt#yuno art#tbh I had quite a lot of fun designing the water guns for this piece hehe#I completely forgot that Iruma should have another shirt under the jacket so uuh fanservice I guess <- disappointed in myself fr#also the alt text is slightly a nightmare I didn't know what to write so I'm gonna give some thoughts about what's going on :')#if I had a nickel for everytime I drew the misfits together as a whole I'd have 3 nickels. They are a hivemind.#the 13 goobers
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Well, I kinda expected this to happen when I heard about the extra chapter anyway. Ochako is gorgeous as ever at least. Congrats izuochas :')
#bnha leaks#mha leaks#i never expected bakudeku to happen but i personally wanted no ships to be canon so that the ship wars on any side would have no ammo#so i am sort of disappointed myself but i'm happy for you guys#bakudeku#bkdk#izuocha#izch#pls don't start ship wars in my replies#i will delete your reply if you try to start shit fr idc if you're a bkdk or izch shipper#no shit in my replies
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there’s something so epic about hetero chinese period dramas and i think one part of it is that there is absolutely nowhere in the narrative i could exist.
lately i’ve been on a western media detox— i’ve cleaned english language music out of my playlists and have never been able to stomach western dramas anyway, so that part is easy— which might seem funny, because if i’m in singapore and i hate it and i won’t touch american music then what’s left? the answer is the false binarism of chinese period dramas, at least for me. the badly written ones are misogynistic and stupid and the better ones are less of those things, but regardless the world that emerges is clean-cut and easy to parse. there’s someone to root for and someone to hate. there’s a girl and a boy. there’s the comedy and the drama, the sheer thick drama, the music that signals to you precisely how to feel before the scene even starts going
try to jam a fifth culture transnational transgender they/them with 2 mental illness and 1 autoimmune disease into this world and it simply doesn’t work. and that’s kinda epic lolzers! it’s like watching high fantasy, or super hardcore sci-if. it both represents a simulacrum of the real world and is so far from the reality you know that you understand it as a hypothetical universe, one that disincludes you on principle. i exclude myself from the story and in doing so fangfei from moyuyunjian’s steely gaze becomes all the more important. i give so many shits and laugh and yell and spectate. but i am safe from the eyes of its inhabitants. if i entered the story it would break. so i sit outside of it, clapping by myself
in other news, we gave up on mysterious lotus casebook 16 episodes in. there are many character archetypes in these shows that i can no longer stand; the salacious sexy seductive supervillain lady is not necessarily one of them but the way they did miss ‘this man didn’t even Look at me when all men fall at my knees so i hated him’ ‘no one is allowed to steal buttchin from me’ jiao was way up there. surely a woman can have multiple personality traits and yet you would think from this drama that that is not at all true. and the strange harem that grew around li lianhua despite his absolute loser attitude— like i get it, he’s the gintoki of this show, that’s hot, but the way the women who were into him were written made me want to Eat Horse. it bothered me that di feisheng and lianhua’s homo as fuck dynamic was so intriguing and them + fang duobing was a winning trio but all the women in the show were written like complete fucking ass, and one of the big antagonists being a woman, the stakes throughout were not only lost to me but also Pissed Me Off. also, that case about the corpse flowers dragged on forever and all my pocky wilted
I Just Think, women deserve better in these damn stories. make them slutty as hell, sure, but make them other things too and i mean this in the most generous sense. slutty and proud. slutty and weird. slutty and oblivious. literally anything at all so they don’t come out cardboard flat from all angles. this is why i have a personal vendetta against the ditzy clueless female protagonist as well because if everything stems from the fact that she doesn’t know shit it’s like please someone Please tell her shit i’m on my hands and knees begging. give her more to chew on she’s dying of boredom over there
this is why i liked the so called antagonist of blossoms in adversity best (spoilers ahead). he was cruel as hell to huazhi and gu yanxi’s only parental figure. he was paranoid and selfish and lonely and craved a son’s love from the one person he couldn’t hold onto. in the end he is pushed further and further by huazhi, who won’t give in, to isolate yanxi from the people he loves and to lash out at those people as a way of punishing yanxi. and when he dies it’s because of his own distrust, his own negligent parenting, his absent cruelty from decades of insomnia and lack of faith in his people. but he cries for yanxi, and there’s something so human about that. to think of evil not as a first principle but rather an adjective for a verb that is set in motion by other events. to be honest, i haven’t seen such thoughtful writing in any chinese period drama before or after that and i strongly suspect i will never see such writing again in this genre but man, it was so fucking good (spoilers end).
in the meantime, i’ve dragged my mother to moyuyunjian/the double for the return casting of liu xiening and wang xingyue who are Eating so hard. they’ve got wang xingyue done up with the sluttiest makeup and liu xiening is breaking my heart with her pout and her Sassy Mean constitution and this is a revenge story, yes, but it’s a double revenge story. it’s a grief story. and fangfei is carrying more on her shoulders than lingbuyi imo, and doing so with much more grace too. her step mom’s a dick but she’s a smart, 5d chess playing dick who wears hot shades of green so i’m personally interested enough to keep watching (something lotus casebook DID NOT accomplish with their epic female antagonist…. mein gotte). and the princess too. unhinged as hell but god, so charismatic. and beautiful, with scary big eyes and the sweetest head tilt. fun fun fun! that’s fun character writing right there. the comedy might be too straightforward for my tastes but everything else is kind of hot and sexy And after the coming of age ceremony when jiangli appeared amidst the flowers i felt my throat close up even though we saw her for all of one (1) episode). i was like yes. they got me alright. i Care now
really that’s all that matters isn’t it. we want stories about people we care for. we want to give a shit. why else would we listen to the stories of other people. we are looking for us and the people we love in them
oh also moyuyunjian soundtrack goes hard as hell i love a little three step waltz. here’s a pic from the ‘gym’ for ur time. guten night
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#gelmo#i get so. i get so angry when women write ass female characters like fr ur kicking urself in the crotch rn#you can be innocent/clueless about The World and still be so compelling#thinking about guxiang from word of honor. she was goofy and oblivious but she also had Teeth#and she was strong! and had opinions and stuff#so important to have opinions….. especially in the pre internet age#i hage so many more thoughts on this topic but i took melatonin which should knock me out so#this is not a well organized argumentative essay this is just me yapping in an empty room#but yeah i was disappointed at lotus casebook. particularly given its high as fuck reviews#reviews? i mean ratings. and stellar reviews or whatever#also the ending (sans 24 episodes of context granted) was ASS i was like ??? it’s over ??? surely not#idk it didn’t work for me. glad it worked for some other homies. fang duobing let me rescue u and the dog from this shit ass story#anyway……….. i have been unable to listen to english language music in some weeks now#this is quite major for me. given my 2 year indie folk phase. but i need a break from america and the ideological west at large#no more taylor biden…. justin kahan…………#just my chinese drama insert songs nct 127’s sixth album WALK and jacky cheung#it’s true i keep landing myself in these spots where i’m sick of america and i’m sick of singapore so how are my friends (from these two#countries) supposed to approach me. well the answer is they are not the country but it’s trhe i am in one of those weird holes right now#glad i’ll be leaving in august briefly! watch me go. awooooo
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ough I wish I didn't prioritize everyone else's feelings and preferences above my own all the time. I'd be nice to Not Do That. at least one time.
#oughhhhhhhhhhhhh#the Holidays™#New Years now.#its. g r e a t#im spending it with my dad. cus. idk. i don't want him to be alone#which is reasonable#but his girlfriend is gonna be over. so. CLEARLY HES NOT GONNA BE ALONE#an THEN my mother is gonna be disappointed and sad that Im not taking part in HER family gathering#and if im being fr; I DONT WANNA BE W EITHER OF THEM!#if im not thinking about how everyone feels#oughhhh and i had to turn down an invite to a friends new years gathering#i didnt *have* to but i *have* to#idk its hard#everything is difficult#i literally never put myself first and yet#both of my parents have inadvertently called my decisions selfish.#guhhhhhhhh#goofy jelly thoughts
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[Feel better soon Jay! Take all the time you need]
[OOC: Thank you. I appreciate it!! ^^ ]
#Mod speaks#i suppose I’m just kinda taking a break?#Disappointing I know. (that’s assuming y’all are interested at all in these blogs)#I understand fr fr#sadly I cannot force myself to instantly be done with burnout#But hey!!! it’s been pretty stress relieving to not log on.#Which is weird. Tumblr is normally a happy place for me.#More of a reason to take a break till I feel better ig!!!#I think I’m okay though which is good.#Being okay is good.#I’m yapping lmaoooo#There’s basically nothing important in these tags so dw if you scrolled to the bottom#real talk#but not negative rlly. just real talk.
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summer profile very quickly before I head off to bed🧸
#had a sick day today!!!#whenever I take the day off I always feel a little disappointed in myself but that all goes away with the coming of the next day’s sun#fr these days!!!!!! it’s going to be a very hot summer….#tomorrow will be the warmest day yet.. 89 degrees farenheit… I hope it won’t be too hot to wear my new jeans#enough about me though!!! hope everyone’s summer days have been fun and cozy so far:}#art from the cabin#artists on tumblr#my characters
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pissing myself shitting my pants
#i passed the semester#but my history grades oh god#9/20#im so disappointed in myself fr#it's ok tho#ill do better next semester#diary
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my dad only knows 2 emotions, anger and mild happiness, and it shows.
#i was disappointed that i asked em to buy me something and he interpreted that as anger#like my dude. you are aware that humans typically can feel nuance right?#then he talks shit about me loud enough that i can hear ofc#he acts so high and mighty as if it wasnt my fucking mom who saved me from being homeless. not him#yelled back at him that i couldve thrown myself off the balcony of my old flat. not my proudest moment but that pos doesnt unserstand that-#-other people can also face mental hardships. also i wasnt pissed off i was disappointed. huuuge difference#but yeah hes a fucking asshole and my mom deserves a better husband#stupid motherfucker#i just wanna leave this goddamn hellhouse but its still 2 goddman weeks until i can move out#fuck i wanna punch a wall but this would make my mom sad and she doesnt deserve it#shes the only one to give a fuck abt me in this “family”#i'm so done here. nit allowed feel anything except neutrality or happiness here bc pos dad takes everything personal#thats fun as a person who inherited my dads anger issues :) thanks dad :) fuck you dad :) cant wait to not see you everyday dad :)#fr mom and the puppy are the threads i'm hanging on by. otherwise i'd just disappear into the night and get it over with#my posts#negative
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was anyone going to tell me that Beth March’s full name was Elizabeth or was I just supposed to find that out by reading little women?
#little women#very disappointed in myself smh Beth is so me fr and I’ve been a fan of her since I was seven#maia.txt
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i havent wanted to comment on the sandsurge drama bc i think it's insane but like. anyone who says that staff "isn't very communicative" has never played another petsite in their life. Turn back time spend 3 years on neopets and then we'll talk about communication bro..
like there is literally an entire Dev Status Sidebar that shows you what they're saying about whats going on that they update pretty regularly and they do dev updates + stay in contact with their playerbase and closely watch their reactions to updates to see where they messed up and what can be improved on. Like what on planet earth are you talking about. genuinely
the only agreement i will give to communication issue is that the wording on aeq's post regarding the fact that it would be a gem breed took me 7 tries and i still dont get it bc it reads to me as "2nd breed will be treasure, 3rd will be gems"?? which is obv not true. I genuinely can't see what ppl mean by this being a confirmation. but thats not a communication issue it is a Confusing Wording issue. don't complain about communication unless you've played literally any other petsite bc i guarantee you this level of transparency and care you will find in very few other places.
#and before anyone thinks im sucking up to staff. i dont like staff. i will never let myself have anything more than#respect for people i dont know on a day to day basis. they run a company. not my friends. esp not after how the eye genes were treated#fr#flight rising#chimechatter#this is the only thing ill be saying on this or reblogging btw i just got irritated<3#my only opinions on every other issue ppl have is 1. i think modern gem breeds should be 1200 and ancients should be 600g#i cant put apparel on them why thr hell am i paying yhat much. i have to pay 1kg and then a shitton for a skin if i want one and then pay fo#r gem genes too can you get real with me. but its fine i can grind bc if im not gonna pay up im gonna god damn do it right#its literally fine. and 2. was initially disappointed we didnt get at least an egg bc i love getting eggs but w/e ill jus grind. 2 weeks of#g&g gets u a breed change scroll lmao its whatecer#they gotta make money. it is what it is. i use adblocker because the changing ads are distracting n give me a headache#so i better either put my money where my mouth is or grind it out yk. Whateval#such a nothing burger drama honestly
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How do you politely ask a man if he got a 3rd leg so I don’t waste my time lmfaooo
#asking for myself#lmfaoo I don’t want the sweet talk if it ain’t 3 down there 😒#like cut to the chase am I gonna wanna gag on it or not#sometimes a man be maaad sweet and cool and then it’s just disappointment down. there#like damn.. now I see why u so chill#lmfaooo#no disrespect intended#all penis sizes matter but I’m tryna feel ALOT#I need my Mario coins outta my system fr#make me forget my name and existence for a bit lmfaooo
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So is no one going to write Swerve/Hangman or... ???
#I can't be expected to write it myself - I'm terrible!#And I can barely write anything right now anyways#Plus it should be trashy and smutty and that's not my forte unfortunately#But come on people it's RIGHT THERE!#Have you not seen the way they look at each other?!#The jealousy from Swerve? This psychotic slasher movie villain#And the warm-hearted cowboy he's envious of#He wants what he has but he also wants him#There's so much potential!#And yet I can't find a damn thing? Maybe I'm looking in the wrong places but come on fr#I mean...I'm not that surprised because...I think we all know why...y'know 🙂🙂🙂#But still I am disappointed and I NEED#These tags are out of control Jesus Sam you need to learn to shut the fuck up
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i love enhypen so much
#🍑.txt#been listening to them on repeat hyping myself up#music gods fr fr#their songs never disappoint#and it's been so long 😭
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Cannot believe I was on Arizona's side in the custody battle for Sofía Robbin Sloan-Torres instead of Callie's??
Wanting to uproot your child for a woman you've been dating for a few months, is not the right move.
#on the white woman's side?? of a custody battle?? i never thought#like i was prepared to be on callie's side#until the battle played out#slutshaming Arizona's time off in the dating scene like she didn't do the same?#bashing Arizona's career and claiming that stops her being a good mom?#I was so disappointed in Callie for letting her lawyer do that while Arizona focused on Sofía's life and family#Penny didn't even know Sofía was in 1st grade#that is inherently concerning because you've known the kid a few months and then ??? moving cross country???#it was far too soon to decide to do that instead of long distance#woc#latina#sofía robbin sloan-torres#callie torres#arizona robbins#i was trying to root for my bisexual latina so hard 😭 i'm so disappointed fr#>>> as a bisexual latina myself 😭 i wanted to be on her side so bad#greys anatomy
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rid do not do this to me bc THAT LIL SNEAKIE PEAKIE OF C&F IS CRAZYYYYYY and thats why we love u.
EEE THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO THIS SMUT, like it's so wholesome, so shmexy, so filled with love and jealousy and craze and desire and conversations–
somehow i always write the best smut for this series and this one is very 🥴 too :')
#I LOVE YOU I HOPE IT DOESN'T DISAPPOINT!! i'm rlly liking it so far!!#also reposting this here bc i find snippets easier later on when they're in asks lOL#but what i said is.. manhandling n tying up? i think yes#n then the cmi11 n entertainer smut too.. i might be outdoing myself this time#I CANT WAIT FR#notes for rid 🌹#anon#fic: candles & flames
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